August 19, 2013

  • Plans B/C/D/E/F/G...

    There's something about backup plans that makes them quite comforting. In my case, it's whats providing fuel so that I can go forward with Plan A. At this point, I really just want to get over Plan A, so that I can go on with my life. I need a new journey. I want to start new experiences. I want to put all my cards on the table and see what happens. 

    FUCK IT.


    In reality, I've never felt so lost and so stranded in place, but I'm taking it as a good sign. The other night, I received one of those late night phone calls from a friend, and this is the topic of conversation. I told her: "I think this is how we're supposed to feel. I think feeling lost, and hopeless, and helpless and directionless from all the overwhelming life choices is a right of passage. It's good" I think....right? 


    Among a plethora of emotions, excitement and fear stands out the most. I don't know how adults did it. I don't know how after going through this, not very many people go mentally insane.

    Inhale. Exhale. Repeat.

     

    -Elle Are Emm