Summary of the past half year…or so 
Lets start off with THE big one shall we?
It’s strange, nerve wracking, absolutely terrifying AND a relief to finally divulge this out in the open but alas, there it is; as of December 20th, 2012 I officially graduated. My journey of 3 years has almost ended.
To be honest I am without a lack of coherence verbalizing my thoughts with regards to this matter… It’s about 90% of the reason why I stopped blogging. It has just been the most difficult thing, I have ever had to do thus far. And it was at this point when it dawned on me; that moment of my life was my inauguration to adulthood; and I just wanted to run way and sleep until it hopefully solved itself. But of course it didn’t.
In any case, I didn’t expect, and frankly didn’t care if I graduated or not. The final, final, final project –and literally the only thing- I needed to graduate was a bust. Again. The first two times I did that class (the first being I dropped out, and the second I failed) I must admit, I did not even try. However, as stupid as it sounds, it was very disheartening the 3rd time around when half of my effort didn’t pay off. Alas, eventually, after multiple meetings with the administration, I think they finally took pity on me and gave me a last and final chance. I did not deserve it, and yet a miracle occurred because a few weeks after the class ended, I received my diploma in the mail.
As a naive, ambitious child, I must admit, I had envisioned my graduation day very differently. First, I thought it would take place the year prior, and that I would be there sitting in, being bored yet eager.
Sooooo… the next logical step just seemed to be registering for the board exam which was to take place in a little over 2 months. I gathered all the necessary prerequisites, payed the fee and was on my way to studying. And then I couldn’t; it felt as though I had burned right through the wick.
After spending 2 sleepless weeks, I finally decided on January 19, 2013 at 4:50 am to put my current plans into suspension. It honestly felt like it was the best decision I’ve made during the past 3 + years. A huge weight lifted off my shoulder and I was finally able to heave a sigh of relief I didn’t know I was holding in. And I just lay in bed, motionless, asking myself “now what?”, because for the first time in my personal history, I had nothing I needed/wanted to do. I could focus on the trivial and the now, at least for the better part of the year. It was something I needed.
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I’ve literally tried to finish this particular blog for weeks now, and my first few attempts failed because of technical difficulties. I think I’ll just post a series of non-chronological picture with short description.
Near the Christmas season, I had searched for a seasonal job to act as a distraction from school. I got hired in a retail position right on the spot but it fell through. Luckily, a friend had to leave her job so I took over around the end of November.
Parents spent a little over 3 weeks in the Philippines, after Christmas. I’m so happy for that they’ve finally seen their respective family, especially daddy, who has not returned home ever since we emigrated. With that said, we did go food-less after baby Bill burnt through mother’s frozen meals. Looking back, I have no idea how Aso survived.
Spent the first half of the first weekend of February in Harrisson, meaning to go to the hot spring, only to find that we had to stay in the hotel that houses it, where we spontaneously decided that we’re going on a trip in the summer.
Daddy turns 48! I actually had to split the weekend between Harrisson and Daddy because I couldn’t miss both.
Baby Bill learned how to pump gas, and got his driver’s license…oh yeah he also has a job now. They grow up so fast :’)
Saw many shows, ate lots of food, slept many sleep overs with the friends.
Painted room, because I wanted it to look like a proper room.
This picture does not do it justice. In the past my room has always been deep red and I don’t know what made me thought of it, but this time around I decided on an earthy theme. 1/4 of my wall is mossy green and the rest is light chocolate. Furniture, bed sheets, even my ceiling lights are a variation of brown. I couldn’t be anymore pleased.
I’v also picked up running. I haven’t been very consistent but at least I’m doing something.
Due to conflicts, I ended up quitting work. I hadn’t expected it but leaving after my last shift was actually quite sad, mostly for the fact that I wouldn’t be working with my awesome coworkers anymore. In any case though, most of the people I started with had already left. I had planned on reducing my hours, because I was actually working 5-6 days/week, and sometimes even 2 weeks straight. But as time goes on, my experience with this company just turned very sour. It was a long drama that I didn’t need so I left.
It’s still sad because we get customers like these little adorable man, that I would probably never see.
We had dinner and saw a movie before my manager went home down under. I’m still somewhat in contact with him and hopefully will get to see him when/if he comes back
With all of that said, I’ve finally wasted more time than I originally intended to, now I’m somewhat motivated to get back into the groove of studying and may be perhaps go for the next board exam.
Oh yeah, meet the Fapping Station or Fappy for short aka the ultra book of my dream. I have never thought “sexy” about any piece of machinery until I laid my myopic eyes on these last year. Funny story, for shits and giggles I started referring to this obviously-too-advance-indulgence as a fapping station. Father and I bought it hardly use and factory restored for 50$ less, last week of May, because Future Shop didn’t have any more in stock but this one. I mean when I opened it, I had to set it up etc etc. But a few days later it blue-screened, as Windows are inclined to do, and when I turned it on again, clicked on the Chrome icon, it opened to the “most visited” panels, to my utter shock and surprise, one of the panels was one for a porn site. I originally thought DP, who was on it for brief while did it as a joke, but when I looked through my history, I couldn’t find said porn site. So I type the address in search, sure enough it was there, however it dated way back in April. It just doesn’t make sense, I still can’t wrap my head around it.
Elle Are Emm
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